How one woman’s spiritual awakening became the catalyst for her transforming pain and suffering into freedom, hope, and love.
Finally, living authentically, mastering the ability to see life from a positive perspective.
In 2020, after the world stopped, I knew it was time to look within and contemplate my future. As 2020 rolled into 2021, I knew with every fibre of my being, deep within my soul, that my life had to change.
I was barely hanging on.
Falling apart.
My marriage was broken, but I’d made my bed, and I had to lie in it. That is how I’d felt for years. I was his carer, and what kind of person would I be if I walked out? To the outside world, everything seemed fine because that is how I’d portrayed my life – I felt ashamed to admit the truth. Few people knew any different, and even then, I hid the extent of the abuse.
Lockdown had been the final straw. I sought therapy and finally understood that my life behind closed doors had a name. Narcissistic abuse: a term I’d never heard before. Narcissistic abuse is also known as coercive control.
During my studies, I’d seen a glimpse of the life I could have. A life I longed to live. Didn’t I deserve a better future? Wasn’t 26 years long enough?
I’d gone to great lengths to fix what was broken, but it was futile. Narcissists promise you the world to convince you to stay, saying that they’ll alter, but they never do. I’d fallen for that charade more times than I could count.
But no more.
In a leap of faith, I said, ‘I’m done!’
I found the courage and strength to tell those closest to me about the narcissistic abuse, and I was overwhelmed by the outpouring of love, compassion, and support.
After the divorce, and with the help of therapy, I started to let it all go.
Switching the focus onto how I wanted my life to look meant that the law of attraction swung into action, and the next chapter of my life began.
This book shares my story, my truth. How I went from being on cloud nine with the launch of my first book, Caitlin’s Wish, to hitting rock bottom. Heartbroken and ashamed, I remained silent, terrified of being judged. I painted a smile on my face, locked my heart in a vault, and lost the key.
Disassociation became my ally in this masquerade, where I only showed my ex in his light and concealed my son’s addiction. I lost my sense of who I was. I lost my voice, and when fibromyalgia and ME/CFS joined the party, Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (EDS) finally disabled me.
After my spiritual awakening, the metamorphosis began. I found the courage to break free from the shackles of the past and rediscovered who I was.
My authentic self.
The journey home to becoming the person I was always meant to be, stronger for the experiences I lived through. I realised that true happiness is when you’re comfortable in your own skin, enjoying life in the present moment, even if you’re limited by disability or illness.
Dr Wayne Dyer said,
“When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”
It’s true! When I changed my perceptions, things began to shift. The right people were attracted into my life at exactly the right moment, opportunities arose, and I started to manifest a life beyond my wildest dreams.
In this book, I show you how you can live a more spiritual, mindful life, where positive thinking becomes easier day by day, as you silence the negative thoughts that used to drag you down.
Take whatever resonates and leave the rest.
My one hope is that sharing my story will inspire you to be brave, take a leap of faith, and choose yourself!
It’s never too late to rewrite your story, however daunting that may seem.
Take it slowly, one step at a time, one day at a time.
You can do this!
Lots of love,
Victoria. xoxo
TESTIMONIALS.
Victoria Lewin is one of the most amazing women I know. Even though she’s been through so much in her own life, she will set her own issues aside to help someone who needs her.
She did that for me, and she’s helped me through so much. When my fiancé (the love of my life) passed away, I knew she was the one person I could go to, because she knew him for many years (before he and I even got together), and I met her through him. She is the one person who has helped me through my grief and helped me to develop my spiritual side.
I feel closer to her than my own family right now.
Not only is she a good listener, but she will also come up with a way to help you through your problems in a different way, and in my case, it usually helps me overcome the issue. Victoria has already helped me overcome so many life obstacles.
I couldn’t ask for anyone better than Victoria as a life coach, and she’s now one of my best friends. I don’t think there is anyone else I would want as a life coach!
You couldn’t find a kinder, more compassionate, or genuine life coach than Victoria, and she is also one of the best authors I know. Her books have helped me so much.
Her ex-husband had the same rare brain condition (IH) as my fiancé and her book ‘Love is all we need’ (written to raise money for the IH Research Foundation) helped me out more than anything! I know her books could help you out, too! Please consider Victoria as your life coach because if you do, it will be the best choice you ever made.
Stephanie McGrail.
Where can I even start? Victoria is the most supportive, encouraging, and compassionate woman I know! She has a gift of knowing what I need and helping me find my answers, not just giving unsolicited advice.
She’s been through enough personally to “get” the hard things I’ve gone through when no one else does.
Victoria is a phenomenal listener, which is not easy to find, and she utilizes what she learns to find methods of addressing the issues and helping me discover in myself what I need to do to make improvements. Victoria has helped me find direction when the road ahead seemed blocked, find my light in the darkness, and was a hand to (virtually) hold in the loneliness.
If you’re thinking about working with her – do it! You’ll be glad you did!
Jen
Jen Hardy
In life, you have to adapt. The problem is, most people think that adapting means changing who you are. Victoria knows this just isn’t true. She has many strengths but by far her greatest is the ability to adapt to meet the needs of who she is talking to.
Meeting them where they are and taking the time to understand their style. All the while not changing who she is. This is helpful for many different reasons, but the two most important are ( 1) It models that it is okay to be authentic and (2) You are always getting the real Victoria and not someone who is trying to fit a mould.
John Williams
Victoria first reached out to me after I had made a YouTube video educating about Intracranial Hypertension that had gone viral. She was so kind, and I remember being particularly touched when she sent me a copy of her book, Caitlin’s Wish.
Over the years, our friendship grew. She was always so supportive of me and others, even when she was going through lots herself.
I can remember during one particularly dark time in my life, she called me and left me a loving voicemail. I actually recorded it and would listen to it on bad days. Just the knowledge that someone cared for me when I couldn’t love myself was so strengthening to me.
While Victoria was not a life coach for me, she still helped to comfort and guide me during a time full of depression and hopelessness. She has such a kind and compassionate heart for others. I am sure that her gifts will lend themselves to life coaching those in need.
Brittany Hazelton
I have known Vicky for 27 years. We were both young new mums with health problems. We were both going through a lot – juggling being parents for the first time with little support! Vicky has always amazed me with her strength and positivity, even at the lowest point in her life! She has always helped me through my struggles, too.
At times, I thought, ‘how much more can she take’ (putting others before herself). But she just finds the most positive way out of any trying situation and just excels in whichever direction she chooses to go. She never ceases to allow any negative situations to change her way of thinking. I really believe we could all take a leaf out of her book. Vicky is truly an INSPIRATIONAL Person!
Christina Jones
Victoria Lewin 